11 December 2008

there's no place like home

Warning. This is going to be cheesy and hard to understand! 

This place doesn't look that exciting, but it was my life for 19 years. (well not this particular studio but dance studio's in general) 
My love. My passion. My dream.
I would spend hours in a dance studio. I miss the way the floor feels under my feet, I miss the loud music, I miss turning out the lights and laying on the floor dreaming up choreography for a song that moves me, I miss the big empty space with nothing to do but dance how I was feeling, I miss the big mirrors in front and spending hours perfecting 16 counts of choreography, I miss performing, I miss the occasional tears that come from the inner most personal place in the middle of a routine, and I miss dancing with my best friend Tammi, the only one that knew what I was feeling throughout all of our duos. But more than anything I miss the way that dance was always there for me. This is my home. It always will be whether I'm dancing regularly or not.
Tonight I went to Kirkland Dance Centre with Kaitlin and took a strength & condition class. Not typically my cup of tea, I prefer lyrical or jazz but let me tell you.... just being in a dance studio again was heaven for me. But my goodness I'm out of shape these days!!
It's still surreal to me that I'm not spending 4 nights out of my week in this magical place. Growing up, my dream was to be a professional dancer, I don't know when but at some point I realized that it was never going to be a career for me. But even after I accepted that fact - I still kept it as a hobby and did everything I could to get in that studio at least 3 days a week. I know that my life has evolved into a place where I can no longer find the time or have the money lying around to dance anymore but I will try to take more classes here and there. I've already planned out the class I'm going to take next week! I'm sure  you'll all hear about it as soon as I get home! 
Anyway, this post was really more of a journal entry for me. But man it feels good to talk about it! 


Jessica said...

That's so awesome, I'm so glad you were able to go there and will dance more in the future. Life is about the things you love!

Luke, Leah, Owen, and Sophia said...

That is exciting! I know how you feel! My instructor from High School is retiring and having us all come back for a routine and I doubt I will be able to handle it!

Luke, Leah, Owen, and Sophia said...

Yep that is our Christmas card! Hopefully it makes it to you in the mail!

Sylvia said...

I miss watching you Mandy!!
It was a huge part of my life too (from the sidelines) and I was and always will be proud of your dance accomplishments!