This post has been sitting in drafts for the last 4 weeks. And coincidentally, when I came in to finish it, I saw that Jesslyn is having a fun link up called "The Name Game". She wants to know what our blog name's mean and why did we choose the name we have. Go figure! Good timing Jesslyn!
Do you ever wonder how someone came up with the name of their blog? I do. When I go to a blog, it's the first thing I think about. Looking at my blog name "A Sorta Fairytale" -- seems pretty self-explanatory, and a bit cheesy, right? Well it is, kinda. I thought maybe it was time to dive into it a little more and tell you the story behind it. I will try to keep it brief. :) And you'll have to excuse me while I jump around a bit in my writing... that is not my strong suit. Sowwy.
I grew up in a dance studio. The expression of dance, coupled with the music and choreography captivated me for 20+ years. A very good friend of mine named Tammi, well we were practically raised together in the dance studio. She was pretty much my dance soul mate, we were just completely in sync with each other. Always there for one another throughout every single competition, rooting each other on and supporting each other.
a side note: Growing up, I always had this vision of what I wanted my life to be like. I never pictured some amazingly grand life, with lots of money, a castle and a personal chef. I pictured a caring Husband, a job that I loved, great friends, and of course - a cute baby. Not that unrealistic, right?
But somewhere along the way, I kinda lost that dream. I got caught up in things that brought me down and I hung out with people that were not good influences on me. For several years, I abandoned that dream of living a fairytale and told myself that I didn't deserve it.
Skipping forward to my college years, Tammi continued dancing together and had several opportunities to choreograph together. The 1st time we worked together, we choreographed a contemporary/lyrical piece for our end of the year show.
We chose a song called "A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos. The song was absolutely breathtaking. I took on so much emotion every time I heard this song. Dancing and choreographing to "A Sorta Fairytale" was bitter sweet for me. Because every time we rehearsed, I would LIVE out my fairytale on the dance floor. It was like an alternate reality for me. For 3 minutes, I could pretend that my life was what I wanted it to be. I could pretend that I was deserving of all of the things I wanted for myself.
Then, in 2005, I met someone special (and no, I'm not talking about my hubby, he will come into the picture a little later). This person taught me that I could in fact have my fairytale ending if I wanted it. My life was in my own hands. He taught me how to believe in myself, and that I am truly blessed - even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. I will be forever thankful to this person for teaching me how to have faith, not only in myself, but in God.
Well after a lot of thought, I made some pretty big, life changing decisions..... I met my Husband and fell in love.
We may not have a ton of money, or live in a mansion and drive fancy cars. But I have a job that I love, great friends, a beautiful little boy - and I'm living my sorta fairytale. And for that, I am so thankful.
So to sum it all up: I named my blog after a dream I had for myself and my life. It sounds super cheesy, my blog represents everything I have been through, and everything I have done to get to where I am today. I have a long way to go... but I hope that my gratitude and passion can be felt when you visit my little corner of the blogosphere.