03 August 2011

my sorta fairytale

This post has been sitting in drafts for the last 4 weeks. And coincidentally, when I came in to finish it, I saw that Jesslyn is having a fun link up called "The Name Game". She wants to know what our blog name's mean and why did we choose the name we have. Go figure! Good timing Jesslyn!

Do you ever wonder how someone came up with the name of their blog? I do. When I go to a blog, it's the first thing I think about.  Looking at my blog name "A Sorta Fairytale" -- seems pretty self-explanatory, and a bit cheesy, right? Well it is, kinda. I thought maybe it was time to dive into it a little more and tell you the story behind it. I will try to keep it brief. :) And you'll have to excuse me while I jump around a bit in my writing... that is not my strong suit. Sowwy.

I grew up in a dance studio. The expression of dance, coupled with the music and choreography captivated me for 20+ years. A very good friend of mine named Tammi, well we were practically raised together in the dance studio. She was pretty much my dance soul mate, we were just completely in sync with each other. Always there for one another throughout every single competition, rooting each other on and supporting each other.

a side note: Growing up, I always had this vision of what I wanted my life to be like. I never pictured some amazingly grand life, with lots of money, a castle and a personal chef. I pictured a caring Husband, a job that I loved, great friends, and of course - a cute baby. Not that unrealistic, right?


But somewhere along the way, I kinda lost that dream. I got caught up in things that brought me down and I hung out with people that were not good influences on me. For several years, I abandoned that dream of living a fairytale and told myself that I didn't deserve it.

Skipping forward to my college years, Tammi continued dancing together and had several opportunities to choreograph together. The 1st time we worked together, we choreographed a contemporary/lyrical piece for our end of the year show.

We chose a song called "A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos. The song was absolutely breathtaking. I took on so much emotion every time I heard this song. Dancing and choreographing to "A Sorta Fairytale" was bitter sweet for me. Because every time we rehearsed, I would LIVE out my fairytale on the dance floor. It was like an alternate reality for me. For 3 minutes, I could pretend that my life was what I wanted it to be. I could pretend that I was deserving of all of the things I wanted for myself.

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Then, in 2005, I met someone special (and no, I'm not talking about my hubby, he will come into the picture a little later). This person taught me that I could in fact have my fairytale ending if I wanted it. My life was in my own hands. He taught me how to believe in myself, and that I am truly blessed - even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. I will be forever thankful to this person for teaching me how to have faith, not only in myself, but in God.

Well after a lot of thought, I made some pretty big, life changing decisions..... I met my Husband and fell in love.

We may not have a ton of money, or live in a mansion and drive fancy cars. But I have a job that I love, great friends, a beautiful little boy - and I'm living my sorta fairytale. And for that, I am so thankful.

So to sum it all up: I named my blog after a dream I had for myself and my life. It sounds super cheesy, my blog represents everything I have been through, and everything I have done to get to where I am today. I have a long way to go... but I hope that my gratitude and passion can be felt when you visit my little corner of the blogosphere.


23 comments:

Amber said...

That is a great blog title post! I think I will do that as well! Glad you have your happily ever after :)

Lauren said...

I LOVE THIS!!!

Vivian said...

Not cheesy at all. We all dream of fairy tales, I just wish we wouldn't grow up and stop dreaming.

Jessica said...

That's not cheesy. I like your blog name a lot!

Andrea said...

Very cute and not at all cheesy! I love hearing how people chose their blog names. :)

Tara said...

That is such a beautiful story!! I wish my blog had more meaning behind it... mine is my initials sounded out... and a photography journal... LOL.

Tiffany said...

I love your title & I love your blog!! You ARE deserving of this sorta fairytale!! I enjoy visiting your little corner of the blogosphere :) xoxo

Shannon said...

Great post Mandy! I've always loved the title of your blog. Well, I actually love everything about your blog! Your so talented with your photography and clearly I can tell how great of a person you are!

Anyways now I'm sounding cheesy! :)

I love visiting your little space. Have a Wonderful day!

Amanda M. said...

I love it! It means something to you personally ~ and that shines through in your everyday writing. Great story!

Kristin said...

what a great post and such a wonderful story! I am so glad you shared this!!

Love, Chelsea said...

Mandy, I loved hearing this story. I completely understand the power that a song and an emotional routine can have. I am so happy for you that you were able to find your happiness and realize your self worth in your faith. Now you have the beautiful family to show for it!

alexis said...

Just wanted to let you know that you inspired me with this post. I think the start to a crappy day just might get a little better. Thanks :)

Jesslyn Amber said...

Mandy, this is such an amazing and inspiring story! You're a beautiful person inside and out. I had an idea of what "A Sorta Fairytale" meant...but had no idea just how much depth it did have.

Thank you so much for sharing!!! :)

Karli said...

Love love LOVE this! Wow, I wish I could write something like this for my blog. If nothing more...than for my family to read and know why I started the whole blogging thing. (for them!) I just can't write something serious to save my life. I totally cheese it up and it doesn't sound like the way I really talk.

Yours is PERFECT. I love what you wrote...it's just beautiful! ♥♥

Lea also known as "CiCi" said...

Love, love this post Mandy!! What a great story. Always enjoy stopping by and reading about your "fairytale" life.

Amber said...

Thanks for sharing Mandy. Your words really made me feel your passion for dancing and your struggle during certain seasons of life.

Nikki said...

I wondered if it had something to do with Tori Amos. I LOVE that song. Especially the "we're all imposters in this country" part ;)

It's not cheesy at all, I'm glad you've made it where you are today. You inspire me with your loving family and beautiful photography!

Olivia Grace said...

I absolutely love that song and your blog title was what first drew me to you!! This was a beautiful story, I love your humility and passion for life, truly inspiring!!

Jess said...

This is a fabulous idea! I might do a post like this soon, too.
PS: I've always loved your blog's name- cheesy or not. And it definitely has a meaning for you, which is great.

The Best of Both Worlds said...

WHat a great post! I loved reading this. I love the name of your blog and how you chose it!

Becca said...

I think your blog name is cute... even more so after reading the story behind it. What a sweet family you have. :)

Tracyjo613 said...

I love the name and the story behind it!!!!

Sarah [NurseLovesFarmer.com] said...

I love your blog name, now that I know the meaning, I don't think you should change it! :)