Recently I posted about the loss of my sisters twin babies. But what I didn't tell you is that a few days prior to that, I got a call from my one of my closest friends. She called to tell me that her baby no longer had a heartbeat at 10 weeks gestation. My heart just sank, I couldn't believe it. I literally cried all night thinking about the pain she must be in. A few days later, I got the call from my Mom, that my beautiful sister was in the hospital at 20 weeks, and was going to have to deliver her babies due to a placental abruption. They were just too little to survive.
I don't normally talk about deeply personal things, especially if they are other people's tragedies but recently I've just felt so helpless. And useless. I know there there is absolutely nothing I can say or do to make either my sister, or my best friends' pain go away. My heart literally aches for the losses of these 3 babies. For the loss of any baby.
In times of tragedy, where do you find solace? We all find it differently, and let me tell you, it's difficult to find any kind of comfort in times like this. But... even through the heartache, disbelief, and overall unfairness of it all... I still have hope. I still believe that there is a greater plan for us. Not so comforting to hear that though, is it? To those suffering a loss, it will never make sense why bad things happen to good people. But I know, that we will see the purpose, even if only in the next life. And this song reminds me of that. It always give me hope. And I'm sharing it with you, hoping that anyone who may be in need of comfort, can receive at least a little bit of peace from this hymn as well. The last verse is my favorite.
Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.
Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.
Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord.
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.