Actually, I should probably title this post "MY truth about pregnancy" - but I'm going to leave it because I think that maybe I'm not the only one that has these feelings.
I have been told by several friends that they never hear me complain. That's kinda unbelievable because I feel like I complain all of the time - but realized that most of it is actually in my head or to my hubs. I really really try not to outwardly complain that much.
But I'm just gonna blurt it out.
I don't like being pregnant. There. I said it. I don't usually say that out loud either (except to my husband) because I don't want to seem like I don't appreciate the gift that pregnancy is. Cause believe me, I do!! I really try not to take it for granted.
Here is the thing. Pregnancy (at least for me) is not at all glamorous like some Mama's and Pinterest might make you think. You see pictures of women and their cute little bump, all dressed up, make up done, hair done, cute clothes, big glowing smiles on their faces looking totally in love... totally fools you into thinking that's how pregnancy is going to be.
I'm even guilty of posting a picture or two like that. Remember this one?
Okay, maybe that isn't a good example of what I'm talking about. But you know what I mean. I'm just loungin' there acting like "oh hey i'm 30 weeks pregnant and it's awesome".
But here is the truth:
This is what I look and feel like 95% of the time. I'm not one of those Mama's who get's pregnant and it doesn't affect my life. I know some people that find out their pregnant and go about their daily routines like nothing is different. They go to work, continue shakin' it at their Zumba class, eat whatever the heck they want, don't have much of a need for maternity clothes because they barely gain any weight... etc. But pregnancy changes everything for me.
For the first 18-20 weeks of BOTH of my pregnancies I spent most of my days staying within a few feet of the bathroom because I puke every 30-60 minutes. With Bennett, it was so bad I had to actually leave my job.
And don't even get me started on the constipation. Ugh.
After I get over the "morning sickness that is only supposed to last for 12 weeks", I start to get massive back/rib aches. Along with this... heartburn, ligament pain, hip pain, swelling, mood swings, trouble sleeping, numbness in my limbs, muscle cramps, non-stop peeing, congestion, exhaustion and fatigue, CONSTANT kicks to the ribcage and bladder... etc.
It's basically 9 months of never ever feeling good.
Pregnancy is hard. It's really hard.
Okay this is officially the post where I complain. I'm allowed one, right?
But now I'm done complaining.
What's funny is that after having Bennett... I actually said on many occasions that I missed being pregnant. But what what I missed was the feeling of growing a human child in my body. Not all of the nasty pregnancy symptoms that go with it.
Through it all, I'm here to tell you that it's ALL so worth it. The real truth is, that we go through these things for the single most important reason in the entire world. And that is to bring a brand new baby into our lives. A baby will change your life forever, but in the best way possible.
Pregnancy is amazing. It's amazing because it's a blessing. It's one that I will not take for granted.
When I hold my little boy in my arms for the first time this April, all of this complaining will seem totally unjustified.
So should I even post this?? I think I will. It's a way for me to remember, and a way for me to really appreciate what our bodies are capable of... and all that I go through.