Before I got married, the thought of breastfeeding was kind of intimidating and I wasn't sure that I wanted to ever do it. I mean come on, who wants to have a kid attached to them every 2 hours all the live long day? And who would want to have to be the only one that had to get up at night to feed the baby? Not me.
But after Philip and I got married, and from the moment I found out I was pregnant with Bennett... I had an immediate change of heart. It was like a little voice whispered to me "hey!!! quit being selfish, breastmilk is the very best you can give to your baby, don't you want your baby to have the best?? also? the bond you will create with your child through breastfeeding will be unlike anything you've ever experienced. oh and hey, it's cheaper, too." Ha ha. Seriously, I feel like that really happened.
After that, it was never a question in my mind. I was going to breastfeed Bennett, and all other future babies. When Bennett was born, it was a little weird at first but we settled in and it was awesome!!! I nursed him until he pretty much weaned himself around 10-11 months and I am so happy that I did. I do have a few regrets, though. Like not having a pump. HELLO! What was I thinking?!? You never know when you might need a stash of milk. Like... when I went back to work and would be gone for 3-4 hours at a time. Hubby had to supplement with formula. It wasn't the worst thing ever but it did make me sad. Or for that time when Bennett went on a nursing strike and would only take a bottle for 2 weeks. Would have been nice to have a milk storage then, too. To this day, I'm not sure why I never bought a pump. It was probably because they are so darn expensive and I'm pretty cheap.
This time around??
Yes, I'm absolutely breastfeeding Easton. We had a rough couple of days at the beginning where he struggled a little. This is about the point where a lot of people would give up and say "oh well, we'll just buy him forumla." And... that's OK. But for me, I really wanted, no I NEEDED to work through it. It's frustrating and can be exhausting when you feel like the baby just is not getting the hang of it, but, I'm so happy that I stuck with it. After several days, Easton caught on and now he eats wonderfully. Sure, at times, it can feel a little bit tedious to sit down to nurse him every couple of hours, and to wake up at night and nurse him-- when I could easily have Daddy get up to feed him. But the bottom line is that when I chose to have children, I chose to put them first. I made a promise to myself that I would always do my best to give them the BEST. And I feel that breastfeeding is best for my children.
Oh and also this time?
I learned from my mistake. I bought a pump. Hallelujah!! I got the Medela Pump in Style Advanced. It has been such a must have. At the beginning I was producing SO much milk!!! Hellooooo uncomfortable engorgement, seriously, it's no joke. Not to mention that since East was having a tough time at first, I could pump some milk and then give him a bottle if I needed to. This pump really saved me. If you are planning to breastfeed... even if you aren't planning to give your child any bottles at all... a pump will still come in handy. Trust me. You will want it. You just never know what circumstances might come up that you will wish you had it!
What a blessing this will be when I start all of my photo sessions again next month and Easton will be home with Daddy!!
So that's my story. These are all my personal feelings and I don't expect everyone to agree with me but I really just wanted to document all of this!
Thanks for listening :-)