02 May 2012

the one that made me a mother


I am really not sure where I am going to go with this post, other than that I know it's going to be just about Bennett.

Life with two small kids is tough, actually, that's an understatement. It's really really tough. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. I feel like I can't do it all.

But the thing is, the love I have for my children somehow makes everything OK.

What I was feeling when I sat down at the computer is gratitude. I'm grateful for Bennett. He is my first born. I love BOTH of my children equally. But Bennett is the one that made me a Mother, and for that, he will always have this extra special place in my heart. I know that Easton will have a different special place. But Bennett, he will forever be my first born. There is no other that can fill that space.

Every single time I look at him, I am reminded of the absolute shift in my perspective the minute he was born. He's the one that has taught me to love unconditionally. He is the one that made me into a protective mama bear. He's the one that has shown me how I want to Mother my children. Bennett is the one that made me realize that in order to be a good parent, I need to be less selfish, and more giving.

My mind is always be thinking of ways I can be a better person, so that in turn, my children will grow up with a righteous example. Everything that I do is for my kids. And all of the decisions I make, are with the intention of providing the best possible home for my sweet boys. Of course, I do things for me from time to time. But real happiness, for me, comes from the fulfillment I get watching my kids thrive. Every little smile, every giggle, and yes, every tantrum... makes life that much sweeter.

Today, I'm grateful for the smiles & giggles that I get from Bennett.




29 comments:

Sarah Halstead said...

Soooo adorable! What an awesome post. :) Bennett is very sweet. 

Kiara Buechler said...

I love that boy, he is so very special.

Erika Senneff said...

Oh my goodness, this post was so perfect.

He is so great.

Erika
www.teandbaby.com

Holly @ Holly Days said...

I think about how i'll feel when I decide to have another after Collin. It's scary, but you're showing me it's just more love. :)

Rachel Orr said...

I love reading your blog!  You are such a loving mother & this blog is a great tool to help you capture your sweet sentiments to your children/family.

jenni from the blog said...

Aww, such a sweet post! And an especially handsome boy :)

Andrea Hastings said...

This seriously made me cry! I always struggle with wanting a second baby because I just can't handle not giving everything I have to my daughter. I know a time will come when I feel ready, but I agree that there is just something extra special about that first one :) He is so handsome!

Kristin said...

such a great and sweet post! and that Bennett is one cute little guy!! seriously so cute!! trust me as a mother of three very young kids with one more surprise on the way it does get a little easier and the moments your kids have together makes being a parent so worth it!! you are doing an amazing job and making the cutest little boys!!

molly said...

Here is my take on it. Yes, your first born will always hold a special place in your heart because he made you a mama. But your second (and if it's final) will always hold that special place because he's your "baby." He's the youngest and that is a special thing too. I still call Brigs my "baby" even though he just turned two. I feel like I still treat him like a baby somtimes, lol. I wonder if it will always be that way :)
Great post, Mandy.

Chelsea @The Curly Cues said...

This made me want to cry a little, not that that is super difficult to do at the moment ;) Bennett is such a sweet boy and he is lucky to have you as a mama.

Sylvia Cook said...

You took the words right out of my mouth! This could have been written by me 30 years ago if there were such things as blogs and internet back then! I told you the other day that being a SAHM was the hardest job ever. You're lucky that the kids have their Yia Yia around and always more than willing to help:) You know you can always call me for a break:)

Ruthy T. said...

I love this post...I'm so looking forward to how life changes when my little one is born!  

caitlin keener said...

this is such a sweet post. I don't know if it's the post pregnancy hormones or what, but this made me tear up.

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

Oh yes, the pregnancy hormones will get ya everytime! he he

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 Your life will change dramatically, but for the better! :-)

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 Oh yes, I can already see that Easton will be my "baby" if we don't have another one!

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 Thanks so much Kristin!

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 Thanks, Andrea!! And yes, I definitely struggled with the idea of sharing my love and time. But now that Easton is here, I'm finding it to be easier than I thought it would be. It's an adjustment but it sort of all just falls into place!

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 Thanks Rachel!

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

 It's nothing but love! :-)

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

Thank you so much!

mandy @ asortafairytale said...

Thanks Sarah!!

Ariel @ Dreams To Do said...

Beautiful post! Love your blog! My friend just gave birth to an Easton Michael & Emily from Peck Life pointed me to your blog. :-)

laurenalb said...

I really enjoyed this post! I feel the same way about my boys too. Ryan will always have that special place in my heart as being the first. Made me a little teary eyed! 


btw I just noticed that Easton's middle name is Michael we were TWO seconds away from giving Weston that middle name...... that would have been SO FUNNY

Lea said...

What a sweet post and what precious pictures of Bennett.  Yes, being a Mom is a tough job but the rewards are so worth it and one day your boys will look back and thank you for being such a fabulous Mom.  Blessings to you!

allieinsavannah said...

This is such a sweet post!

Skye said...

What a great explanation of having two children. I often wondered if/when we have another, would I Be able to love him or her like I do my daughter. There is my answer in plain english. Very sweet. 

Our Muddy Boots said...

Oh my gosh.... that line:  "He is the one that made me a mother."  That is beautiful and completely accurate.  I am glad to have found you.

Alissa -Sis said...

He is just so special. I know what you mean about 'the one(s) who made you a Mother'. I feel that way about M & A. I may not have gotten to bring them home with me, but they were the first born and because of that, they will forever hold that special place. There is definately something about that first child.

Love you, Bennett, & Easton (& Philip of course)!