I'm kinda behind on this post, because well, life is busy. I actually started this about 2 weeks ago, and just finished it. #momlife
I don't make New Years resolutions, never have. But I do however, try to come up with small goals and things to strive for. As 2012 was coming to a close, I spent time reflecting back and I realized something about myself. I have an incredible need to be in control all of the time. And it makes me a little nuts. Why? Because having control all of the time with an (almost) three year old and a 9 month old is nearly impossible. Ya know what I'm sayin'?
Its just that throughout the day, I always feel like I need to be doing something. Or preventing something from happening. Stopping massive messes from occuring, keeping the kids clean, finishing a project, excessively picking up & vacuuming, stopping the toddler from climbing and killing himself, keeping the baby out of the kitchen drawers...etc. And when I am unsuccessful and Bennett spills milk all over the floor and has a meltdown, and the baby shoves a whole wad of toilet paper in his mouth and starts choking, I admit, I get flustered and irritated. I mean, I realize that I cant be in two places at once, and its impossible to have all of my bases covered, but somehow I always feel like I can, and should, prevent these little mishaps. And it drives me up the wall when I don't. Anyone else feel like that?
It's quite silly, right? Obviously these things happen, I'm a Mom. I have two little boys at home.
So. For the sake of my own sanity, I've decided on my "word" for twenty thirteen.
It's really hard for me to do that......relax. But I'm getting better. I'm slowly teaching myself to just breath a little more often, and let things go. It seems that so many of you are supermoms, with clean houses, always have a yummy meal that you're preparing, and your kids are always well dressed. That is definitely not the case over at the Chiappini household. I admit defeat. I cannot do it all. I fact, I just put a decal on the wall in my kitchen that says "Good Moms have sticky floors, laundry piles, dirty ovens and Happy Kids". I got it to remind myself that it's okay to just BE sometimes. To remind myself to relax and just accept that I can't be in control of everything. It's OK to have messy kitchen counters, and it's OK if my laundry sits in the bin for weeks at a time. You'd think that by now, I would have already had this epiphany, but, I guess I'm a little slow. ;-)
So my hope is that this year, I will chill out a little. Take things in stride and enjoy my little kids while they little.