26 March 2014

He tells me he loves me

When you find out you're pregnant, your mind immediately starts going over all of the amazing milestones you'll get to experience with your children.

For instance...

Their first smile
The first tooth that pokes through
The first time they crawl
First words
First steps
First time the say "I Love You"
First time they ride a bike
First day of school
First time riding the bus

Many many firsts... which I've tried my best to document on my blog. However, there was one 'first' that took a little longer than most, and I didn't experience until very recently.

Since the time Bennett was born, I probably tell him I love him no less than 245 times a day. At least. And from the time he started uttering words, I have been waiting and waiting.... and waiting -- for him to tell me that he loves me too. For 4 years, I had never heard those sweet words come from my sons mouth. Obviously, he shows me he loves me in many different ways. But something about hearing him say it... I needed it. I've been very open about Bennett's speech delay. He struggles a lot with communication and being able to express himself. He also struggles with a learning disability, so in the past few months, I've wondered "Does he even understand what those words mean?". I tried my best to explain it to him, but it's a hard thing to explain to a child.

Every night, when I tell him I love him, I always wait an extra long time before I leave his room... just in case he says it back, I wouldn't want to miss it, you know? I even started to ask him "Bennett, do you love Mommy?"... sometimes he would nod his head... but sometimes he wouldn't respond at all. And if I'm being honest, my heart would always ache a little bit when I wouldn't get a response.



But a few weeks ago, we went through our bedtime routine. Bathtime, brush teeth, put on PJ's, say prayers, get tucked into bed, and then I gave him a kiss and told him "Mommy loves you so much!"

I kissed his cheek again, started to walk out of the room... and that's when I heard it.

"Love You Mama"

I kid you not, I don't think I've ever heard anything more precious in my entire life. Tears started streaming as I ran back into his room and threw my arms around him. In that moment, I was the happiest I'd ever been.

And every night since then? He's told me he loves me at nighttime before bed. Not any other time during the day, but always at night. And I'll tell you something, it's my favorite time of the day. 


I think sometimes we take those little things for granted... the things that come (to some children) so easily. I wonder, if Bennett had started saying I Love You around age 2 like most kids do, would I have appreciated as much as I do now? I don't know. But I do know that sometimes the best things, are worth the wait. Because every time he says it, my heart feels so warm and full. And I'm so thankful for my little boy and all his love.

34 comments:

Lizzie Simantz said...

That's so sweet!!!!

Becky G said...

The most precious words your child can say, for sure!

kristy said...

Honestly, hearing those words from your kid never lose that heartwarming feeling they give you. My daughter has been able to say she loves me for a while now and it stills shocks me as much now as the first day! I'm so happy Bennett was finally able to tell you :)

Alessandra Ferguson said...

I teared up reading this!! How precious!

Jess Beer said...

I started crying. Seriously. Such a sweet thing to finally hear.

Meg O. said...

That is SO sweet. I am tearing up over here!!! What a beautiful story to document.

Kaymee said...

Lincoln has a speech delay, as well, so I totally understand what you're saying. I think we appreciate those words even more, because our kids are trying SO hard to talk! Lincoln didn't call me "momma" until he was 2 1/2 years old! I'm so happy for you. Each and every time Bennett says those sweet words to you, you will just melt. Each time.

Kara @ Just1Step said...

I just teared up. Thanks for sharing, girl. :)

Amber said...

This made me cry! So precious!!!! Thanks for sharing this, you just made my day! :)

JenniferAStreet said...

Oh my gosh I feel the same way.. my (almost) 4 year old has a speech delay and was recently diagnosed with high functioning Autism. He is the sweetest boy, gives lots of hugs and kisses and is the best cuddler but nothing means more than hearing a child who struggles with speech say those sweet words. I don't get it out of him very often but he does this other thing lately where he hugs me tight at bedtime and whispers "Mama okay, mama okay" in a sweet lovey voice.

Marie Luciano said...

So so sweet. I wait for Kayden to say I love you some days it's hard enough for him to even give us a kiss he has to be in a lossy mood I guess I can't wait to hear him say I love you.

ashlyebrink said...

That story made me tear up a little. The words are the sweetest. So precious. Thank you for sharing.

beckyj @ A Lazy Crazy Life said...

I just got a little teary. How sweet!!

Loyal RUN said...

That is so precious! Ya, this made me cry!
I know the feeling of waiting and waiting for them to say it.
Especially on their own, without being asked.
Such a special moment!

Sarah [NurseLovesFarmer.com] said...

It's so precious. Luckily Braden has always responded "I love you too, Mommy" when I tell him I love him, but he's recently started to say it on his own too!

Kiara Buechler said...

Yep, tears! ♥♥♥

ADSchill said...

So very sweet. He is the best. I was excited when Cooper finally said "Night" to me and learned to kiss. I can't wait for the I Love You words!

Tania T said...

What a valuable moment!Thanks for sharing this moment with us!Best post ever!

Courtney said...

Sometimes the best things are worth the wait. Absolutely! This is so great, Mandy.

Bailey L. said...

awww that is adorable!!! I've never even thought about my boys telling me that (10 month old and one coming soon). I will be looking forward to that every day now! How cute!!

LesleyEpstein said...

That's so sweet and totally worth the wait!!! Nathan (who's almost 3) says "I love you to the moon and back, mommy" and it makes me cry every single time!!!!

Whitney M. @ The Married Me said...

So precious!

Karen Bettencourt said...

I understand how you feel completely. Tristan had a speech delay as well (even now at 4 he still has issues sometimes when he starts stuttering and babbling because his thoughts are moving too fast for him to get out). It took around 3 years to hear I love you from him and now I tell him every night and every time one of us leaves the house. Sometimes I tell him several times at night just to hear him repeat it. I don't think I'll ever get over that.

Also Emmett is showing similar signs as Tristan did at almost 1.5 so we may be going down this path again.

Rj and Jessie said...

Not going to lie, this post made me cry.

Naomi Tinning said...

What a beautiful moment. I can't wait to experience this one day. :)

Karren said...

This made me cry! I'm looking forward to that day with my 3 year old

Fran said...

This is the sweetest thing ever <3

Megan Peter said...

I cried, no joke. So happy for this special milestone!!!

changeismyonlyconstant said...

So incredibly sweet! I long for children just to hear that!

~Katy

jack!e @ The Wife Life said...

Oh I love this so much. Tears streaming down my face right now. I cannot wait for this moment. <3

Krista said...

Beautiful post!!

WeeMason Man's Mom said...

Oh man, this totally made me tear up. I'm so happy that you guys reached this milestone!! And I'm glad your post can serve as a reminder to not take those BIG words for granted even if we are use to hearing them. Amazing.

Julia @ The Everyday Momma said...

I'm so glad you were able to experience and share this moment. I have been trying to get my son to say it for a while now. He is finally starting to talk a lot, but he doesn't do the repeating thing much, so when I ask him to say it, he won't. And even when he doesn't I'm not sure he will even understand what it means then, but I am looking forward to it nonetheless! I really loved reading about this super special moment; I'm sure its something you will always remember :)

Leah D said...

So cute. It's amazing when they start talking and you can have an actual conversation with them.

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