The morning we left, as we were packing the car and getting the kids ready, Bennett realized what was going on and that we were leaving. He had a break down. He started crying and telling us that he didn't want to go home. It was absolutely heart-breaking to watch. He grew so close to not only his family there, but the way of life. It's so hard to tear him away, so many tears.
Bennett, especially, would really thrive living somewhere smaller and more slow-paced. He loves nothing more than to be able to roam free and explore -- wide open spaces suit him well. My Husband and I both agreed that seeing him there, in a completely different environment, it's like he was a totally different kid. More aware, more relaxed... happier. Whereas, I feel like the faster pace lifestyle of the Seattle area can be too overwhelming for him (and me, if I'm being totally honest). Easton? Well he would be fine anywhere I think, he's pretty chill.
While I think that you can find joy and be content anywhere (because home is where the heart is, or should I say "home is where my family is"), I truly believe that where you live has a HUGE impact on your every day life and perspective. There's a lot, like a lot of outside influence that we don't usually take into account when we choose where we live. And it's important for me to remember what kind of influence I want the culture/community to have on my kids.
Don't get me wrong, I appreciate & respect variety and diversity. It's just that if I look down to the core of who I am, and what I envision for our family, it doesn't really jive well with Seattle (or surrounding areas). We live a conservative lifestyle, and our values and beliefs are much different than most that live in the Pacific Northwest. Could we be happy here forever? Yes. But it's hard to ignore that we just might be happier and more fulfilled somewhere with a more like-minded community. There would also be the benefit of our kids being close to my Husbands side of the family. I feel SO strongly about them having a close relationship with them. But then again, could I ever leave my friends and family here?
I feel like I am constantly battling with myself about what would be best for our family. I mean, obviously, it's not just my decision. My Husband sort of has a say in things, too. And I know that right now, he's happy in his career. He's ambitious and always needs to be able to "climb the ladder" so to speak, so I feel like he would be unhappy somewhere with so little demand for his line of work.
So that's kind of a big deal. And one of the major reasons why moving to Idaho hasn't been a realistic option for us.
I don't know, I'm just sort of thinking out loud. And I'm feeling kind of moody, so who knows how long these feelings will last.
What about you??? Do you live in the city? country? suburbs? Where do you feel you "fit in" the most? And are you happy where you live?