And my Mothering skills this past week? Definitely leave something to be desired.
I know that people have bad days, weeks... heck, even bad months. But when I go through these phases and my patience is paper thin -- I catch my self wondering "What the heck business do I have being a Mother right now?" My poor kids need me and I am just going through the motions, as opposed to actually wanting to be there. And like I said, they've been total hellions since we've been home. Not sure if they are just feeding off my negative energy, or I'm feeding off theirs. Either way, it's been a challenge.
I have found myself just sitting on the couch, dreading having to get up to make lunches, help my child go to the bathroom, or break up one of the sixty seven fights they've had that day. I've had no energy, no motivation, and just feel down in the dumps. I HATE this feeling, because usually, I'm pretty quick to snap out of these kinds of mood swings, but this time, it's gone on way too long.
Truth is, I'm not sure what to do to get out of this funk. I've tried working out, taking the kids out to the park, I even went to the hospital and met my good friend's brand new baby. But, no luck. Still come home feeling just icky.
I think I've decided that I'll try the "fake it till you make it" method and hope that snaps me out of it.
Maybe you all have some advise for me? Or can at least commiserate with me. ;-)