01 July 2014

Mind Overload.

July 1st? What the heck? Moving on....

Confession.

I've hit a wall recently. I have so many drafts right now just sitting in my dashboard. So many topics I want to discuss, and stories I want to tell, but I just can't seem to get my mind in the right place to finish a sentence, let alone an entire post on anything meaningful. I continue to hit backspace because I'm just not getting my thoughts out in a way that makes any kind of sense.

So I apologize for the crickets lately. Truth? I have been kind of checked out of blogging for a few weeks now. I mean, I'm going through the motions, but I have so much on my mind and so much going on I feel like blogging has sort of taken a backseat. Well, I should say that writing has taken a back seat. Because I'm still very much involved with the blogging community/networking and reading of blogs. I'm just struggling with finding the words to express what's going on in my mind.

And that begs the question, how much of my rational & irrational thoughts should I even dump into this blog? At what point does it become just jibberish that no one (including myself) will want to read?

I face the question, should I sit down and write all about my failures as a Mother? Or how I am scared to death to start teaching a Rizzmic class at my gym? Or how I'm re-evaluating my 'career' as a photographer? Or my spiritual well-being?

OR. 

Should I just sit and watch another episode of Supernatural and zone out for the night because I'm so freakin' exhuasted from running around with the kids, burning 800 calories at the gym, learning and memorizing new choreography for my class, running a photography business, running a blog, all WHILE trying to keep some sort of cleanliness in my home and be a wife to my Husband. (longest run-on sentence ever, sorry)

It all just gets to be a lot, you know what I'm sayin'? Maybe I'm just trying to do too much.

All I can say at this point is that I can't WAIT for the vacations we have coming up. We're going to Idaho in a couple of weeks to visit my Husband's family. In August, we're taking an adults only trip to the Oregon Coast, and in September I'm heading to Atlanta for the Type-A Parent Conference. Least I have a lot to look forward to.

But in the meantime, I hope I get my mojo back soon.

And because I can't post without a photo, you get a ridiculous selfie of me in my workout clothes, because I feel like I live in them. Oh and I don't even know why I'm throwing up a peace sign.


Gosh that felt good just to ramble.

28 comments:

Rachel said...

As a fellow writer, I can completely understand that the inspiration to write (and finish writing!) comes and goes with different seasons! It'll come back!

Betsy said...

i totally hear you...i often have a ton of posts in my drafts and just feel like i can't get them completely finished! sometimes you just need to take a break and take care of yourself.

Taneja's Bride said...

It's okay! Sometimes you need to rest your mind too!! I always tell myself this - sometimes taking a break is better than burning out! Hope you get your mojo back soon! <3

Mimi said...

Rambling is so good for the soul. It's like getting everything out and you are left with a clear mind and all the things you need to do are on virtual paper!

Sarah Shermann said...

I hear you, I have this with posts sometimes. I think you need to rest your mind sometimes having some time away is way better than burning out

Courtney said...

Oooh how can your workout ponytail look so dang cute?!!?

Also, totally diggin the phone case.

Miranda Myrabev said...

oh i hear ya, too many drafts in my dashboard too and i a getting so tired lately that I am just crushing and sleeping

ADSchill said...

I have all "light" drafts in my dashboard right now because I haven't had the energy to write anything deep. I get it. And if you feel overwhelmed that you have too much on your plate than cut back a bit. And if you want to just get something off your chest and don't feel like writing, I am only a phone call away.

Brooklyn Jolley said...

What is a Rizzmic class??

Esther Ju*Lee said...

i don't even know how you do it. i feel like just blogging without kids is a TON of work.

Cosmetic Sanctuary said...

I have a ton of drafts that will probably never be posted. Just feel drained and don't have the energy to really go through everything

Iris said...

Mandy, I feel ya! I've had the feeling so many times, especially when writing has been a big part of my life! I often have some unemotional, fun posts (like a tag or something) that hold me over until I feel like writing again. Hope you break through that wall.

irinegeorgia said...

The main reason why I started blogging (in Georgian and in English as well) was to express my emotions. So, write what's in your mind, doesn't matter if it is jibberish. Writing is very good therapy and helps.

Jess Loves This Life said...

I hit a slump not too long ago. It really helps to just talk it out with any creatives around you. Sometimes you also kind of just need a break and that's okay too!

annette silvestre said...

it happens, take time for yourself to sit back and de-stress. Vacations are good...

Discovery Street said...

I feel you. but i'm kind of like...i need to get all my blogging in before baby comes! I think i'm getting a little "nesty" ish about blogging! lol

Hima Rajana said...

You know what? It doesn't matter :) Just let it go for a bit, and your motivation will come back - I promise!

xo, Hima
Hima Hearts

Michelle Chouinard said...

Take a blog break, baby! :)

twolittlepigs downunder said...

Can totally relate to everything you've described! Your mojo WILL be back :)

Ashley Z. said...

Keep going!!

Ashley Griffith said...

Definitely take some time to just be without blogging. Live life and think about what you want to remember. Then maybe use this blog to help you do both. That's what I try to do whenever I get stuck!

celery and cupcakes said...

A blog break may be ideal for you right now.

Kiara Buechler said...

Hmmm, sounds to me like you have lots of difficult topics to blog about. For me that's when I get my writer's blocker, or should I say posting block? I have a dozen posts I write in my head, but feel like I can't post them for fear of offending someone or making myself look like an ass. Keep at it chica, we all love you here on the interwebs (and in real life too).

Carly said...

No apologies! We all go through this…..it's ok to take breaks!

Raewyn @ Be A Warrior Queen said...

You've got this girl!! :) It sounds like you're on the right path for everything, it's just in a jumble right now. Things will start to clear up. We'll all still be here for you :)

Kristine@thefoleyfam said...

Rambling posts rock my face off! Real life girl. You are not alone! XO

Leanna Ranieri said...

It happens to the best of us!

Life with Amberly said...

I think sometimes you need a blog break to get reinspired!! :) And that's ok :)