16 September 2014

I Chose This.

Do you know how many times I sweep my kitchen floor each day?  Pretty much after each meal or snack. Why are kids so messy when they eat? Is it really that hard to get the food actually in your mouth? I don't even know. Whyyyyyy are there crumbs and chunks of food on the floor again!? If only I enjoyed cleaning....

But here's the thing, I highly doubt that it's anyone's idea of a good time to clean up after other people. No, don't even try to tell me you enjoy it, because I wouldn't believe you. 


Well, as I was sweeping the floor under the kitchen table for the 27th time yesterday, I caught myself cursing a little under my breath. Cursing. Wait. I don't curse.... or do I? What the heck. I stopped for a quick minute to sort of calm myself down because, you know what...

I chose this.

It was a very well thought out, prayerful decision. No one made me decide to quite my full-time day job to stay at home with my kids. Yep,  I definitely chose this. How silly am I to think that along with that choice, there wouldn't be a lot of cleaning up. Like, a crap ton of cleaning up. And it doesn't stop with sweeping the kitchen floor 27 times a day. It continues with dirty dishes, dirty diapers, endless loads of laundry, pee on the bathroom floor, my home decor lost or broken, legos in every nook and cranny of the house, and toys being dumped out every other second. And please don't even get me started on how the kids tear through the house ripping off every bed sheet and comforter off every single bed, along with all the pillows... pile them up and on the dirty floor and together they jump on said pile, inevitably ending in someone screaming and crying. It's basically useless to try and stop them.

But like I said, I chose this.

If I'm being totally honest, though, regardless of the fact that this was my choice, sometimes it feels like I was thrown into abyss of the never-ending chaos without having a clue how to navigate it. Every day feels like a new challenge presents itself, and I'm floundering to try and find a solution, and often times feel totally in over my head. Because I guess when we're in the thick of it, parenting that is, it's easy to lose sight of the bigger picture.

And the bigger picture is that being a parent is not only a blessing, but a privilege. And even through the abyss of never ending chaos, I CHOSE those blessing.

I chose it because I wanted to be a Mother. And I made the choice to stay home with them because I wanted them to have this time with me. Even if means that some days, I'll be cursing under my breath as I'm sweeping the floor again.

But most importantly, I chose this because there is nothing more amazing than to see two little human beings made by you, and of you. 

And I think I need to do a better job of reminding myself, that this life, it was my choice. And I wouldn't trade it for anything.

27 comments:

Kelly Mock said...

Lol I feel like that with vacuuming! If I didn't love our dog so much.....

Kerri Muffin said...

What a great post. I feel exactly like this!

Annie L said...

Yes! I feel the exact same way! Thank you for sharing and helping me feel more sane!

Annie
The Mama Gazette

Charlotte's Little Web said...

Love this! "I chose this" is a simple but vital way of reminding ourselves that, at one point, the sacrifices were more than worth it. Thank you for sharing your lovely thoughts!

Melissa Haag said...

Oh what a great reminder!

Andi said...

Love the intention, I think the mantra can apply to anyone - kids or no kids - and it is great to stop and remember!

Life with Amberly said...

I LOVED this post! I think this can apply to anyone's situation in life, whether it's work, school, staying at home, being a mom, being a wife, etc. When we start to feel down on our selves and frustrated with our situation, we need to remember that we chose it!

Jenna Brussee said...

I needed this reminder! I'm not a mom, but I can definitely apply it to a lot of other areas.

Fiona Naughton said...

I loved this post. It's a great way to think and be happy with what we chose in life.

Amby Felix said...

This article made me laugh lol! I swear I wish I had Micky's hat from Fantasia and have 100 brooms cleaning up behind my children haha! I seriously want to count now how many times a day I sweep. I swear people think we tidy up once and get to hang out all day. Though things are easier now that my kids are a bit older and help out, I'm still doing dishes and laundry all day long lol but we are all blessed with awesome families so it's all good. :D

Stefany T said...

Ahhh, this is a wonderful post and something I needed today. I am feeling overwhelmed with everything I have to do but I love being home with my family. It is all about perspective and I needed some. Thank you!

Lindsay Living Vegan said...

I love this! Haha, I am the exact same way :)

Leesha said...

Found you via Instagram and loved all your photos.. so I found your site and have to say I am a new follower now! Looking forward to reading along with your posts. :)

Tanejasbride said...

Such a great thought. Will remind myself the same next time.

Kayli Schattner said...

Awe, you're such a good mama! Love what you had to say :)

theaccidentalmama.com said...

Everyone choses something but it doesn't mean you have to like it all the time! Being a mom is the hardest thing ever!
xoxo
The Accidental Mama
http://theaccidentalmama.com

Laurel Wadsworth said...

Moms are such hard workers. I was a stay at home mom with my daughter and had to go back to work before I had my son. I am counting the (years) until I can be a stay at home mom again. Its the hardest but BEST job ever!

Erica Marie said...

I absolutely loved every bit of this, and "I Chose This" is such a great way to put yourself in check. I will definitely be using that going forward!

Winter White said...

Being a parent is the hardest job in the world. I salute anyone who makes it their number 1 priority. This time will pass and one day you will be nostalgic for it. As well as reminding yourself that you chose it, remember it is also fleeting so embrace each moment.

JoAnn said...

Great reminder. I need to remind myself of that as well at times :-) Especially after my son throws all of his food on the floor when he is full.

Brendy Beauty said...

Great post! Thanks for sharing your story!

Taneja's Bride said...

I have to keep this as a motto from now on because there are times when I lose my patience and this would totally remind me that I did, in fact, choose THIS. <3 Lovely words, dear! <3

Katie said...

Omg I've given up hoovering our apartment. I know if I leave it long enough my boyfriend will do it for me (shhh) I've told him he needs to be able to provide for me one day for exactly this reason. I literally wouldn't be able to deal with this and a full time job!

Katie <3

Kiara Buechler said...

I have a solution for your sweeping woes: She is an overweight, white, furry beast. Just say the word and she is all yours ;-)

Jessica Doll @ Team Wiking said...

Vacuuming and sweeping is so not my fav. thing. Roomba's do make it a little easier though, and the kids love watching them. :)

Rebekah Clarke said...

I am adopting this as my mantra... 'I chose this'. Thank you for writing this, I know I feel this way daily!

Carissa(GoodNCrazy) said...

The photo! I stopped dead in my tracks. THE PHOTO!!! LOVE. :)