So I think it's a combination of him being just away from me at school + and his struggle to be able to recall and communicate to me, that makes me feel... left out. It's not a good feeling.
The truth is, I miss him while he's gone. I wonder what he's feeling, what he's experiencing. Are kids being nice to him? Is he able to express himself if he's feeling overwhelmed or anxious? Does he miss me while he's gone?
See, I'm still sort of new to being a Mom of a school-aged kid. And he's not even full-on school aged. I realize that soon enough, he will be in school full time and I will see him even less (which, scares me, if I'm being totally honest). So I guess... I'm just sort of entering the stage of being worried all the time. Worried about what's going on while I'm not around. Worried about his sensitive little heart.
I worry about growing apart from him a little bit. I mean, really, it's a big change from being with your kid 24/7, to sending them off 4 days a week, 4 hours a day.
OR maybe it's just me?
I've been in closer communication with his teachers lately, just to feel a little more in the loop. And I might go as far as to see if I can come volunteer in his classroom every now & then.
If I'm already feeling like this with my 5 y/o, how am I going to handle sending him off to grade school? Or high school? Or college? Ooooh heaven help me. Ha ha.
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