I don't want to be one of those bloggers. You know, the ones who appear fake and act like everything is butterflies & rainbows all of the time when it's really not. But the truth is, right now, everything is wonderful. Which is sort of why I've been a little more absent from the blog lately. My posts have become fewer and more spread out, because frankly, I'm just enjoying life.
I have spent a lot of time the past year or so doing some self-reflection. Like, serious self-reflection. Do you ever find yourself just going through the motions in your life, doing the things you think you should. When in reality, those things are not right for you? And are not making you happy anymore, the way they used to? Or maybe you were never happy doing them in the first place. I'm sorry for being so vague, but I don't find it necessary to go into detail. However, I think that everyone can relate to what I'm saying in some way!
So back to what I was saying :) As I've been really looking at my life and my decisions through a magnifying glass, I realized that I needed to make some changes in not only my lifestyle, but my attitude and my perspective as well. But it took a lot of time and patience, and also a lot of opening up to some people I really trust -- but I am finally here. I am in a place now where I can say that I am absolutely content with my life. I know how rare that is, especially considering all of the comparisons we so often make thanks to social media. But I am happy.
In fact, I'm the happiest I have ever been, right now, in this very moment. Isn't that what we should all be striving for??? I feel like it's taken way too long for me to get here.
Let me back track for a minute. The way I'm talking makes it seem like I wasn't happy before. That isn't true, because I was. But there was always something I was missing, or something that was feeling off, empty or misguided.
I think what it boils down to, is that I realize that I am in complete control over my life. I can decide who I want to be, how I want to raise my kids (with the help of my amazing Husband), and how I want to interact with those around me. I am following my dreams, I'm doing things that make me legitimately feel like I'm in the right place. I have found a confidence I haven't had before, and I feel so lucky to have this peace of mind. I'm a better wife & mother because of it.
My life is far from perfect, but I am the happiest I have ever been. And it feels damn good.